Dad Always
Dad Always is a baby loss podcast created for fathers grieving miscarriage, stillbirth, termination for medical reasons, and infant loss.
Hosted by Kelly Jean-Philippe, the podcast centers the often-overlooked experiences of bereaved fathers—men who grieve deeply, even when that grief is quiet or unseen. Through honest conversations, personal stories, and reflective episodes, Dad Always explores grief, fatherhood, and the enduring bond between dads and their children.
Listeners will hear from dads and parents who have experienced baby loss, as well as from professionals and advocates who support families after loss. Some episodes include artistically crafted reflections that hold what words alone cannot.
Dad Always is a space where dads don’t need to explain or justify their grief—and where meaning and pain are allowed to coexist.
Episodes
62 episodes
E16: Grief Is A Companion for Life ft. Hashim's Dad (Azher Rubanni) part 2
Grief doesn’t end when the world stops checking on you. Sometimes it waits, quiet and contained, until another loss cracks the container and everything rushes back. This week concludes my conversation rich conversation with Azher Rubanni, a dad...
E15: Grief Is A Companion For Life ft. Hashim's Dad (Azher Rubanni) part 1
How do you live after your baby dies without feeling like you’re betraying them by surviving? That question sits at the center of my conversation with Azher Rubanni, a father who lost his son Hashim in a full-term stillbirth 20 years ago. We ge...
E14: Suffering In Silence ft. Ross Knight (part 2)
Today I conclude my conversation with Ross Knight, a pastor and husband, who learns, painfully and honestly, that trying to be “the strong one” can become a way of disappearing from your own grief. We talk about miscarriage from a father’s pers...
E13: Suffering In Silence ft. Ross Knight (part 1)
The part of baby loss we don’t hear enough is what happens to dads when everyone assumes we’re “fine.” This week I speak with my friend, Ross Knight, for a raw conversation about infertility, IVF, miscarriage, and the quiet ways grief shows up ...
E12: Parenting Through The Silence ft. David Ryall (part 2)
Silence can be louder than any sound you’ve ever heard, and for parents facing stillbirth, that silence doesn’t end when you leave the hospital. Today we hear from David Ryall, a bereaved father living in Australia, sharing the story of his son...
E11: Parenting Through The Silence ft. David Ryall (part 1)
Silence can be louder than any sound you’ve ever heard, and for parents facing stillbirth, that silence doesn’t end when you leave the hospital. Today we hear from David Ryall, a bereaved father living in Australia, sharing the story of his son...
E10: Loss Can Mean Something Different For Everyone ft. Dr. Nina Paidas-Teefey
When you’ve just heard “there’s no heartbeat,” even a casual “congratulations” can feel like the world is refusing to acknowledge you and the reality you now inhabit. That moment is where trust breaks, grief compou...
E9: Can AI Really Help Me Cope With Grief? ft. John Kammer
Grief has a way of burning off the myths we inherit about manhood. When the storm hits, bravado, control, and silence stop working. We open up a candid conversation with John Kammer, a new fathe...
E8: Grief, Choice, & Parenting After Loss ft. Jane Armstrong (part 2)
This week concludes my conversation with Jane Armstrong, LCSW-S, QCSW, PMH-C. Jane is a TFMR & miscarriage mom, a native Texan transplanted in Colorado, & a clinical social worker certified in perinatal mental health. Following the birt...
E7: Grief, Choice, & Parenting After Loss ft. Jane Armstrong (part 1)
This week's guest is Jane Armstrong, LCSW-S, QCSW, PMH-C. Jane is a TFMR & miscarriage mom, a native Texan transplanted in Colorado, & a clinical social worker certified in perinatal mental health. Following the birth & death of her...
Dear Brother
Some moments break language and redraw our lives in an instant. "Dear Brother" is a raw, compassionate letter to men grieving the death of their child—a message that refuses easy answers and hollow comfort, and instead offers st...
E6: Who Gets To Grieve When A Baby Dies? ft. Michael Elliott (part 2)
This is part 2 of my conversation with Michael Elliot. We resume from where we left off last week, and explore fatherhood after miscarriage through vivid memories, tangible rituals, and the everyday courage it takes to speak a child’s name that...
E5: Who Gets To Grieve When A Baby Dies? ft. Michael Elliott (part 1)
In part 1 of my conversation with Michael Elliot, we trace Michael’s path from early joy and provider pressure to the ultrasound room where a missed heartbeat rewrote his future. He unpacks stoicism, the awkward retraction of public joy, and wh...
E4: The Missing Half Of Fertility Care (ft. Gabriela Rosa)
Grief doesn’t hand out uniforms, but our systems still dress dads in silence. Gabriela Rosa joins the podcast to spotlight the missing half of fertility care and the very real ways men carry loss—often without acknowledgment, language, or a pla...
E3: A Bereaved Dad’s Journey From Loss To Purpose (ft. Matt Whitehouse)
On today's episode, Matt Whitehouse retraces the day his daughter Callie died, how grief transformed his identity, and how the right type of communication, counseling, and community helped him rebuild. He shares why he now supports bereaved dad...
E2: How Writing "Love Letter" Helped Me Speak To My Grief
In this episode of Dad Always, host Kelly Jean-Philippe shares the story behind “Love Letter,” the theme song for the podcast.Through personal reflection, Kelly explores how poetry became his first language for emotion, how...
E1: Introducing Dad Always
Dad Always opens with a clear promise: this is a home for fathers and families carrying baby loss, where grief does not need to be defended and love is allowed to last. We share five core beliefs, outline the formats to come,...
BLAW 2025 - Talking Platitudes with Miscarriage Mumma Support
Four words can slice through a tender moment of grief: “At least it was” (now, fill in the blank). We’ve heard it, we’ve felt the sting, and we wanted to unpack why platitudes show up so easily—especially around miscarriage—and what to say (and...
BLAW 2025 - Talking Platitudes with Still Parents Podcast
A lot of people want to help—and end up reaching for the worst sentence in the English language: “Everything happens for a reason.” We go straight at the hard stuff with the hosts of the Still Parents podcast, unpacking why platitudes land like...
E40: Dear Daddy (A Letter From Your Unborn Child - Narrative pt. 3)
Welcome to the Narrative Series, a poetic frame exploring a father's perspective of pregnancy and pregnancy loss.What happens when grief meets love on Father's Day? This poignant episode features a heart-wrenching letter written from the...
E39: The Elephant in the Room (Narrative pt. 2)
Welcome to the Narrative Series, a poetic frame exploring the father's perspective of pregnancy and pregnancy loss experience.Often times during a bereavement, the dad's experience of loss is drastically different than that of the mother...
E38: The Womb of Imagination (Narrative pt. 1)
Welcome to the Narrative Series, a poetic frame exploring the father's perspective of pregnancy and pregnancy loss experience.Narrated by: Kelly Jean-PhilippeMusic: Cosmic Oceans
The Unspoken Agony of Life after Multiple Miscarriages (Re-released)
Hello!This week's episode recalls the conversation we had in episode 14 with Sophie, founder of Miscarriage Mumma Support, in March 3, 2024. We hope you find listening to th...